Eternal Sunshine

You are always on my mind
Your love makes me blind
You are my eternal sunshine
When I first met you I knew it was a sign

With our love combined everything is in reach
Together we can withstand any siege
I think we are the perfect match
Together our hearts can withstand any scratch

Scotty, you mean so much to me
I love you forever, that I guarantee
You are my sweetheart day by day
Without you my life goes astray

I hope we make it, I hope it will be fast
I hope the moment forever lasts
This poem has come to an end
Remember that, without you, my heart feels bent.

For my love, Scotty.

I feel so joyful and taken advantage of sometimes, 

When I think of you each night and day, 

And when I see you, I see the world, 

I love you more than words can say… 

 

 You’re so grand! This love is everlasting! 

I can’t resist your personality, it’s true! 

The moon and stars fade into shadows… 

I am absolutely crazy for you! 

 

Your soul is lost; your heart is kind, 

And my heart is truly in your hands. 

I could run and skip ’til life was done,

 But YOU are the focus of my plans.

 

This great happiness is grand my love, 

And for you, Scotty, I thank Heaven above. 

All my love, Amber xoxo

Insane

Im so starting to go insane .. i guess i am new to this love thing even though I thought I wasnt.. I have been married but is coming to realize that I wasnt as in love as I thought i was and i was just young. But I am in love now and its new and its not the easiest thing and it hurts to be without him and all I can do is think about him and if we will be together for ever and if everything will be ok… I just dont know and it sucks

Venting

I just cant understand how in your mind it is ok. You knew from the start that I couldnt have children and you were ok with it and then when your mind changed. It was not your fault it was mine. How is it my fault when I was truthful from the beginning? How is it my fault that I did everything I could to make you happy and that I love you more then anything? I think you need to relook at this situation and start taking some of the blame. I wouldnt be so upset if it was just me you walked out on. But no you let my 2 daughters get attached to you for 9 months then want to walk out and make it seem like it was my fault. Your such a jerk. You said you loved us but you make me wonder when you pull shit like this. You always said that my kids father was worthless cause he walked out on them all the time… what does that make you?? You have walked out on these girls you supposedly loved and thats suppose to be ok.. I DONT THINK SO!

Cant Sleep

Looks like here I sit another night, so tired but not able to sleep. So many thoughts going through my head wondering what life could be or what it can not.

I just dont know if the path Im on is the path for me, I mean so many things that I dont know if I want but so many things I dont want to lose. None of it makes sense to me and dont know who would understand if I talk to them. I am just scared that everything will go horribly wrong and I will never see it coming.

Well its nice to get those thoughts off my head, now to try and get some sleep.

*Ambs*

Life works in wonderful ways

Just sitting here thinking of how life works. My uncle  is just got out of a multiple  bypass surgery and he did wonderful in it I am so happy!!!! I was really scared cause my grandma died during her surgery of the same thing!! So my day is going alot better!!!  I prayed alot today and I am so happy!!!! 

 

 

*Amber Diane*